This is Probably The Best, Not to Mention the Worst Idea, That I Have Ever Had.

my life in a nutshell.
-i'm not happy right now.
-i would love to move to canada right about now.
-this song i'm listening to is pretty much story of my life.
-i wish i could be completely honest with my boyfriend.
-i want to find a friend that i can sit and talk to for hours about a bunch of pointless shit.
-i love reminiscing with old friends.
-i'm too demanding, and i need to watch myself sometimes.
-i hate when people try and prove me fucking wrong. i'm not that fucking stupid.
-oh, and to add to that. i hate when people think that i'm stupid.
-i have too many things written down on my bucket list.
-i'm afraid of being alone.
-i'm afraid of everything, actually.
-i want to find myself.
-i wish i knew if there really is a God.
-i flirt way too much, and it's a problem.
-i call myself a whore so much that people actually believe me. what a joke.
-i honestly wish i was really good at something.
-i wish i was a better writter.
-i want to experience the perfect kiss at some point in my life.
-i want to go to alaska and see the northern lights.
-i hope that i find a gay friend soon.
-i always explain myself, when i really don't have too.

my perfect day;
wake up real early one morning and drive into new york with my mom &whoever i'm dating at the time. while driving, it would have to be snowing, a lot. we would spend the whole day walking around central park in the snow, because it's absoultly beautiful. then we'd take one of those carriage rides, 'casue my mom& i said that we had to do that before we die. after doing that, we'd find some hills and just roll down them like 5 year olds, because honestly i still love doing that. after doing that for a while, we'd probably go back to where ever we decided to stay, and get ready to go out. we'd drive into the city and find the greek resturant that i ate at like 4 years ago on new years eve. thennn, to finish the evening, we'd go to rocafella center to go ice-skating.

i don't know why, but i just thought of that, and i decided that i needed to write it down. it could come in handy one day.. yeah, so this is done now. i hope you had a good thanksgiving :) bye.

sexxxxy caaaan i ? ;)

it's 9:47 or 10:47, i'm not so sure, and i'm straight chillin' listening to sexy can i. i really have no life. actually, i lied, i do. this is the first time that i'm legit home, and not just sleeping since thursday night. but this isn't gonna be about my shhhhweet weekend cause i don't wanna sound tooo gay, but it is gonna be aboutt.. nothing. i'm just gonna talk about whatever pops into my head first.

mkay, so before when i was in the car with katie & her momma. and she was like, oh yeah i was talking to your grandma and we were saying how you grls should have like an annual party thing, and you can invite everyone and it'll be like your thing. so i'm kinnnda wanting that to happen, sooo0n, like now. hahaha. cause that's something to look foward to, yaknow.

i was actually talking to someone about this the other day. i need something too look foward to keep me motivated. haha, yeah. cause if i don't have something like that, then i just kinda get myself upset over nothing. hahaha. UM! so for the next couple of months i'm like sooo readdddy.
this weeek ;
homecoming thursday.
game friday.
saturday dayyyna's.
-thennnn thanksgiving break.
-then it's christmas season, and i'm always happy during christmas, :)
-christman breaak.
-new years eve.
-CANADA; january 22nd, love my liife <3
-after that i don't even knowww,

so yeahhh, lifes fucking great. and i love it. sooo ummm. i'm gonna put pictures this time. (:

um, those are the people i was wiiid today making shirts for homecoming (; yayayayayyaya. um that was a big step for me, so i'ma gooo0 now. kbye :)